Hankercheif...

yesterday i left form home at 4;30 was in Pioneer coaching to take law class 10 min before so asked for a cup of tea.. it was a good tea and suddnly i hear vinita shouting "Oh shit!! This is really bad." i waited for the news to come .. and she came and disclosed that all the student have decided not to come as they are watching australia india match. any ways i asked the only one student present if he has sme questiona he want to discuss, using this opprtunity... to which he said that he would like to go and watch the match...i understood and we smiled at each other. I soon after fininshim my tea left the institute...
its rare that you suddnely get time to do nothing its a luzury.. i first decided to go to dilli haat (have been thinking about since morning) and just roam and sit alone.. i was letting any thought to come to my mind and was walking... thinking that i am going to catch an auto.. but instead i found myself standing in mid of lajpat naar market.. any ways i was jus walking here and there... i decided not to stop and shop and just walk and watch.. what a view!! people shouting, quoting the price, women putting clothes on themselves and checking if it suits them.. a child not interested at all in sweater is being forced to stand still so that she can be measure if the sweater fits her well.. and her moter assesing if it could be used in second season as well.. a boy and girl too young to know that they are just atracted to each other and say that we are in love fighting and the girl forcing the boy to enter the shop first, and boy resisting... a very fat lady havng golgappas.. a fully pregnant women buying shoes for her baby and husband holding few for her to select... all and everywhere there is soemthing going... crowd is so much initself and alone..
i just looked here and there and then suddenly a man cam to me, a man quite smartly dressed looked well educated was able to speak in a mannered and civilised way, polished shoes, and holding a big nice bag on his shoulders, he said "excuse me" i was taken a back... and he said "Would you like to buy a cotton hanky set only for Rs.50/-" WHAT HE WAS SELLING HANKIES!! i said a clear NO, and moved forward and he also to others but i could not resist myself to stop and look back. look back at him. He selling hankies..?? i thought he might be selling compuers or handling some corporate post.. i was shocked was it a prank or reality... i stopped and just looked at him though pretending that i am selecting some clotes to buy... he kept on asking all the passers by no one soped for next 5-7 minutes.. who was he, waht was his life about.. how comforatble he was, doing this work, what made him do so.
i have nothing to do with his life.. i only pray to allah for all those who are in problem and are struggling hard to make the ends meet wheater its a begger or a rikshaw puller or any other.. i pray for all.

in the evening while i was getting down from riskhaw at my plase i asked "kitna hua?" he said 10/- i handed a 50 ka note he told me that if possible i should give the change i said no.. he still requested i said i have a 10 rupee coin which i do not want to part with.. the moment i said this .. he stoped his search for change and handed the 50/- note back to me and said "didi mere pass ek dus ka sikk tha aur ek 20 ka be tha meri behen ko de diya maine bangaal mai.. please mujhey 10 wala sikk dedo mujhey rakhna hai kharach nahi karoonga... aur 20 ka be ho to woh be, mai bees ka note de doonga us ke badle..." I had been safugaurding that 10/- coin for last 5-6 months and that request just broke all of my rigiity and i gave that coin.. i left the rikshaw and a tired sweating yet happy rikshaw puller.

its great to touch lives!

it ghunnnnn ghunnnnnn.......

its almost a week now that i m having a strange kind of vibrating sounds in center of my head.. i hope and pray that its not something serious... i plan to visit Dr. but it is just not happening. Its so irritating... thinking all this i stopped my T.V. Watch, started using ear plugs instead of cellphone near to my ear and also slept early and got up when i felt like i am done with enough of sleep.. but it would not stop.. oh wish i could explain it as to what it is.. it forces me to close my eyes and it also makes me feel that world should stop for a while till i am back... but ...
i have not let someone take it seriously as i remeber it happened a few year back and then disappeared at its own, i hope it just a body reqction to my unhealthy life style.
iam fed up and hate telling all the time that i am having it.. better i collapse and it ends along with everything else...
allah please help me out...

terror!

was in nehru place for some time... all the time i was so alert that koi dhamaka ya terror attack na ho jaye.. it was a starnge feeling looking at people buyingcrackers and new clothes on diwali discout... i was thinking why not these things are visible to those who make a mess of peoples live... it happends in pakistan in inida or US or afghanistaan.. we all are teh same human being.. ad we feel hte sae pain and same happiness.. it just a nderstnadig of the so much repeated phrase. "Live and Let Live!"
i also thought of sharua as i found this folowing poem...

Shaurya Kya hai ?
Thartharaati is dharti ko raundati faujiyon ki ek paltan ka shor
Yaa Sahme se aaasman ko cheerta huaBandookon ki salaami ka shor
Shaurya Kya hai ?
Hari wardi per chamakte hue chand peetal ke sitare
Ya sarhad ka naam dekar andekhi kuchh lakeeron ki numaish
Shaurya Kya hai ?
Door udate khaamosh parinde ko
Goliyon se bhoon dene ka ehsaasya
sholon ki barsaat se pal bhar mein
Ek shehar ko shamshaan banaa dene ka eshaas
Shaurya Kya hai ?
Behti pyaas mein kisi ke garm khoon ka
Huale se surkh ho jaanaYa anjaani kisi jannat ki firaq meinpal pal ka dozakh bante jana
Baroodon se dhundhlaaye is aasmaan mein
Shaurya Kya hai ?
Waadiyon mein goonjte kisi gaon ke maatam mein
Shaurya Kya hai ?
Shaurya Shaayad ek hausalaShaayad ek himmat
Hamaare bohot andar
Mazhab ke banaaye daayare ko tod kar
Kisi ka haath thaam lene ki himmat
Goliyon ke betahashaa shor ko Apni khamoshi se Chunauti de paane ki himmat
Marti maarti is duniya mein nihatthe date rehne ki himmat
Shaurya Kya hai ?
Aane wale kal ki khaatir
Apne hisse ki Kaaynat ko Aaj bachaa lene ki himmat
Shaurya Kya hai ?
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.Lovely lyrics from the movie "shaurya", penned by Javed Akhtar Sb.