ugggggghhhhhhhh!!!

confusion in life
everyone seeks attention! sick!
and those who don't, I seek for their attention!! more sick!!!

hard work.

what does it mean.
hard work
does it means tension
does it means or being tired
hard work means what to whom
i enjoy when i am tired
i hate it when i am tensed
i just hate it
i love to be productive
i love to be useful to the world
so i really want to put as much of hard work as possible
but i hate the state of being tensed
i hate it when i am hating something or somebody
but it seems to be out of control
The issue is that i love hard work.
i love when i feel drops of sweat on my forehead an on my back...
i love it when i am tired and want to sleep
and i still continue with that work
i love to put my BODY in pain, then its soothing for my SOUL
its healing.!!!