cruel intentions....

i still remeber i was on my way to karnal.. and we stopped by Nariyal wala.... he was quite a funny man he let us do what ever we were doing... then we started talking about "kalandhri"... and abhik was also there to whom i wanted to explain what it is!!

Sky, Earth and Water Meet Without any Boundries.. they merge..... So Do the Souls....My Attempt to Understand!!

My todays fortune on orkut says "The course of true love never runs smooth".... and the book i am reading "the road less travelled" says the same.... its never is smooth..... the good thing is that its about TRUE love!!
TRUE LOVE......how easily we get wrong impression about love...., romance is romance not love..., initial attraction is just initial and that is also not love...., love is also not "falling in love" becz then after a while one comes out of it..., the moment one is awakend of ones individaulity the "falling-in-love-pahse" is over... Love is about the life when you come out of that "falling-in-love-pahse", ...... Hmm I think it majorly depends upon what kind of arguments one is having...,
How much the couple cares for each other even when they are out of "falling-in-love-pahse",
how much they understand each other when they are out of "faling-in-love-pahse", and
how much of ego they are able to shed when they are out of "falling-in-love-phase".....
..... and it is importnat that both should be looking forward for a long spritual journey (understanding one SELF to understand the SELF of the partner... becz we all share the same SELF) ...

...and space to grow.... not just help the other person grow, but also be ready to grow oneself, this could be achieved only once one admits that there is scope for the growth.!. and that scope is aaaalways there. Its the understanding of SELF which helps in realizing this scope.
If one loves onself then only he/she can love the other... and the entire world is lovable what we have to see is the journyey (intellectual and spritual both) they are going on.. the values they share, the principals they hold and most important the space they give and take from each other which makes it evarlsing.......!!
and both keep working on these things "every single moment" but then we can say for sure " that they lived happily everafter!!!!

I want curl in my hair back... i loved them....!

to the regular reader of my blog...

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huge rocks and tiny me in port blair...

I was in port Blair from 3.7.2006 to 8.7.2006... had really enjoyed my stay there that was my first trip over the sea... and to Andaman Islands... later on i did enjoyed but somehow those memories of the first visits are still fresh in my heart... and today suddenly while i was digging out some of my paper i found a crippled note of my thoughts and feeling i had jotted down while being there... thought of posting it before I again put it some were not to be located easily.... ( As my gold chain and few important receipts are still missing!!!) the note is typed as it is here...."walking through the rocks... not so rocky actually... i realize the closeness.... being close to the one of the world strangest creation the HUGE SEA and nothing else all around... how tiny i felt.... standing in front of the sea which was touching my feet... the countless crabs coming and going with the waves and walking all over the sand... and on every wave i make my grip stronger so that i may not fall in water..
I am in Port Blair for the last 4 days for the first time in my life flew over the sea and came so far off from my home.... with Seema Misra. Its a different feeling thinking that i am at a place which was nothing except few tiny dots at the globe just to give the complete picture of Indian boundaries... but here the world is and that seems more close to Allah then Delhi or any other place... as the nature is here and its ever where....
Here every story starts with 'before tsunami'/'after tsunami'.... the young group of panchayat member(they call themselves captain) are feeling totally lost in absense of the older people who were not able to run fast and save their lives from the strong roaring water... the young leader are lost but i am sure they would get back to the normal life very soon... as the spirit is high and that's the only thing which brings in rest of the happiness for life.."

few beautiful pictures to share....

so crowded but still the connection is there....

We are connected... and enjoy this connection hahaha

my present and others...

It is irrelevent to the present how i would like the things to have been. How things are is the only factor I can deal with. Unless i begin wih my life as it is, I am centered in a fanasy. When i find myself blaming, I can be certain that I have falen into this trap. If I see only how others could have been. I blame others. And if I see how others are, blame is impossible!!

Migrant labour..

i am so much into this migrant labour thing that seems i would die but would not be able to complete what i am trying to write...
Help me Allah!!

love this song for no reasons.....

heard it after a looong time and was lucky to find it written somwhere..... do only songs have the capacity of being so clear when it comes to expression?
"Abhi Na Jao Chhod kar..
K Dil Abhi Bhara Nahi..
Abhi abhi to aayi ho..
bahaar ban k chhaayi ho..
hawa zara mehak to le..
zara behak to le..
ye shaam dhal to le zara..
ye shaam dhal to le zara..
dil sambhal to le zara..
main thodi der jee to loon..
nashe k ghoonth pee to loon..
abhi to kuchh kaha nahi.
to kuchh suna nahi...
Abhi Na Jao Chhodkar...
K dil abhi bhara nahi..
Adhoori aas chhodkar..
Adhoori Pyaas chhodkar..
Jo Roz tum Yoon Jaogi..
To Kis Tarah Nibhaogi..
K Zindagi ki Raah me..
Jawaa.n dilo.n ki chaah me..
Kaii Maqaam aayenge..
Jo Humko aazmaayenge..
Burra na maano baat ka....
Ye pyaar hai..Gila nahi"

posting form lucknow

today is going to be last day of my trip to lucknow..had a good time with ammi abbuji and nani.. i loved observing Nani.. she is 85 yet with so much of sense of humour and is all alert... have written a small note about her in my diary... would post it sometime...

i liked this trip as these days my life is facing a different angle as well and i hope and pray that it turns out to be beautiful and better for my life.. and i got to think about it a lot...

i pampered myself and loved hearing that i deserve it..

wah.. life is great.....just to remind myself i am here putting some pointers..

- basit bhai engagement.

- my sis conflict

- shair-o-shairi with abbuji..

- lying under sun..

- lying of stone path in garden. making of beds in garden

- kind of duas i got from Nani..

- the emotional emotional meeeting of all sisters and ammi

- my reconnection with Azra... we standing for hours outside shara mall

- our visit to bhoot bangla... we shouted and screamed and i kept on shouting all duplicated... was scary but not that much

- and soooo many smses to my newly found friend......

would get into details of these when i am back to my place.