Life after Lab

 I have just finised the ISABS's basic Lab - seems some layers from my personality have been peeled of and I am able to witness a fresh Sana. absolutely new thoughts. I took a sabbatical of six weeks, to sort out things in my mind. and the first week was a blast for me.

Here are the points that I would like to build in myself on a long run. The most important thing tht I hae learned is that it is ok to be vulnerable. I am now more wired and more connected to my feelings and and from last these days I vow myself few things 

1. My Feelings are my responsibility I hae to deal with them at my end- and I cannot be giving remote control of my felings to another person.

2. Always connect with your feelings let it proess especially the anger and then respond

3. Always be conscious how the person in front of you trying to connect - emotionally or  mentally - this will help you connect or deeply connect, or bring it to the table an make the communication deep 

4. ideally thinking to be responsed by thinking and Feeling to be responsed by feelings 

5. When in anger or any feeling - express the feeling but take time to respond the feeling. Say I am angry and later think and respond. 

6. Expressing jealousy - it might need courage but it is also a form of appreciation - if not expressed it maay take another form like inferiority anger revenge etc. 

7. The thing I need most in life I am also rsisting it at the sme time. I am craving for love and

8. Keep a watch on yourelf - when you are supressing your feelings are you being a saviour or martyr. and why you have this need- see the root cause. 

9 Stronger Sana has to take care of smaller Sana. 

10. You need to be direct and straightforward in what you need- ask for it without making a Jalbi and putting sheera around it. 

11. I am enough for my self.. and capable of taking care of my emotions. 

12. I am also scared of pu;ling down the black thick curtain 

13. I tend to feel the feeling with more clarity when someone else is feeling the same... does this mean that i am not closely deepy connected with the feeling 

14. Sometimes someone may believe in somehing but necessarily other may not hold the same belief . So whatever your belief is bring it to the notice and agree or disgree.

15. In case of disagreement instead of thinking to keep my point more clearly i tend to doubt myself and withdraw myself / is this submissive ness . inferiority .? I give power to other by too quickly withdrawing and taking a step back. instead of providing the data i tend to connect here emotionally and feel clueless and step back.